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[04 Sep 2005|02:28pm] |
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Yet again my updates are extremely delayed!
This entry is acutally exactly a week overdue.
Payton Jay Carter was born on August 28th, 2005 at 12:50 in the afternoon
He weighed 9.5 lbs and was 20.75 inches long.
Pictures!
http://www.whitewolfspirits.com/Payton
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[20 Jul 2005|01:05pm] |
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Another quick little update from Kitten.
The baby shower was intresting but fun. Only Kelly showed up but that was okay. I dont like big crowds anyway and we all got to be complete fruit cakes and didnt care. The best part was the cake fight! Yup.. We had CAKE everywhere.
I brought Debo and Kelly brought her little MinPin Reba. Well Reba is alittle bit of .. well a bitch so she kept chasing Debo out of the room. LOL
Got a bunch of cool stuff. Im just all giddy happy.
Going today to get the rest of the stuff that I DIDNT get at the shower. So.. Yea.. *waves good bye to all her money*
Oo and getting a new cellphone
*covers Harry in virtual kisses* I love you baby!
Happy Kitten
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[27 Jun 2005|01:39pm] |
| You Were Actually Born Under: |  You are quick witted, charming, and bring luck to all who know you.
A bit greedy, you tend to go after what you want - with success.
Clever, you seek out knowledge... and eventually use what you know to your advantage.
You are very loyal, and you treat your real friends like they are family.
You are most compatible with a Dragon or Monkey. | | You Should Have Been Born Under: | 
Delicate, timid, and attractive - sometimes you really do act like a bunny.
You're very compassionate and protective of those you love, sometimes too protective.
Your home is really your castle, and you make sure your home is comfortable and well furnished.
You don't like to argue - and you prefer a quiet, peaceful life.
You are most compatible with a Goat or a Pig. |
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[27 Jun 2005|10:11am] |
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I thought now would be a good time to update. Not that much is going on.. Just thought it would be good.
The special day is getting closer. Yup about 8 weeks left to go. Going to the DR alll the time now.
I did get my service dog finally for my anxiety. He's really freaking cute. He's an adorable little Pom named Debo. He goes everywhere with me and is very well behaved. Of course at the house he is a typical little pom.
HL has been going really good. Spent alot of my money on training tickets for the pom Im working on at the moment. Luckily its starting to pick back up again. I did my first IMAP so hopefully I will be able to make alittle more :)
Im now part time at work. I don't know how long that will be but I'm not complaining. I work three days a week and an extra one if they really need me. Im training a new girl to do all my stuff so that should something go wrong or whatever they have someone that knows what is going on. With my vacation being this week she got to try it first hand.
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[26 Feb 2005|01:45pm] |
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It seems like it has been forever.
Another update from everyone's favorite Kitten!
How has life been for everyone?
Well its been different for me. Harry and I have our moments. He's very strong willed and once he's made up his mind. He tends to stick to it. Generally he will continue to enforce his point until I have either given in or he realizes that it isn't something Im going to take to. It's a very delicate balance but it seems to work for us. He does lack alot of social graces. Me.. you can spit in my face and I will offer you a towel. Harry.. you spit in his face he'll knock your head off. However generally I can get him to relax.
The baby is fine. We did have alittle bit of a scare. I bled for a few days but that seems to have passed and everything is back on track again. We go for another appointment on Monday. I'll be 14 weeks then. Just a little while longer and we'll know wether it is a boy or a girl. We have a registry at walmart and believe it or not my sister is planning a baby shower!
The dogs are just awsome. Caity has grown into a beautiful adult and while she is on the small side she's your typical doberman. Sirrah is our little baby girl! She sleep in the bedroom with us and is sooo well behaved. Harry cant say her name though. So he calls her CiCi.. she awnsers. She's not a big as Caity but she went from 19 pounds to 35! She's not tall but she's stout! Ambor.. he's a damn weed! Not even 5 months and he's 50 pounds. He's almost as tall as Caity, shy about half an inch, and already he's ready to be the guard dog we wanted! Very sound minded but will hit the end of the leash when he's told.
Sandy is good old Sandy. None of the dogs really like her, but she holds her own. She spends everynight curled up either on Mommy or Daddy depending on who is holding still at the time.
Our little conure is a spitfire. Tame but he's a very proud little bird. Love him to bits.
And Blue.. our rat. She's just goofy. She loves Dog Food as Treats and will eat ANYTHING we give her. AFTER taking it to her hide out and comming back to see if we have any other goodies.
We should get our house finnished shortly. Harry has a big job comming up and his tax return. So hopefully before the end of March we are in our house. Getting ready for the baby!
*snugs to everyone*
Enjoy!
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[28 Dec 2004|06:19pm] |
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GRRR Livejournal just ate my damn post! Oh well!
Now, What was I saying..
The wonderful Kitten has returned!
Things have been great for me. Things with Harry are amazing! I couldnt ask for anything more. He asked me to marry him on the 22nd and we found out that we're gunna be parents on the 25th! Christmas! Isnt it great?!
Im finally doing everything right.
He wont let me keep anything from him. He pays such good attention to me that he knows every time something is bothering me and wont let me not tell him. He makes me breakfast in bed and he buys me flowers all the time. He spoils me ROTTEN.. Specially now that Im pregnant! LOL I always get my way!
We also bought a house out in Sheridan. a little 2 bedroom house on 3/4 of an acre.
Kitten is doing good.
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[02 Dec 2004|11:33am] |
Mmm life is grand.
Harry is so amazing. We are getting our house and we have our new baby. Yea :) I bought another doberman. This time its a red male. So we're gunna breed them. Mmm :) Happy Kitten!
Things are just going sooo right. I couldnt ask for anything better!
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[09 Nov 2004|11:08am] |
Hello all my live journal compadres.
How has life treated you?
My life has been.. amusing
I have had a nervous break down. Was sent to my moms for 4 days or R and R and then I thought that I had reached the end.
I went from scratching to cutting.
Until Harry came into my life.
Yea.. :) Its beautiful.
He makes me overcome my fears, while holding my hand.
He makes me face challenges, while never leaving my side.
He's managed to make it where I no longer need the medication. I no longer have to stay close to comatose in order to keep from hurting myself. All I have to do is give him a little look or a little cling and all my problems disapear. He's taught me so much in the week that we have been seeing eachother that.. Its amazing.
I have left the one person who acutally made my life a living nightmare. The one person I thought I loved more than anything in the world. Turns out that I only needed to love myself.
I have made a friend,
and hopefully a life time partner....
I love ya Harry :)
~Ashley~
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[13 Oct 2004|08:24pm] |
| My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul |
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| blackpawz goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Super Kitten. | | bhata tricks you! You get a toothbrush. | | fateema gives you 18 light blue grapefruit-flavoured pieces of bubblegum. | | jaygazer tricks you! You get a rock. | | midnightmyst gives you 2 light green chocolate-flavoured pieces of taffy. | | sevenpointflaw gives you 15 light yellow cinnamon-flavoured jelly beans. | | blackpawz ends up with 35 pieces of candy, a toothbrush, and a rock. | | Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern. |
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[02 Oct 2004|08:17pm] |
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For Sale:
Cute Little Kitten who only wants to be loved and provide for her litter. Cleans up after herself and infact can be alittle obessessive about cleaning when she gets down to it. She doesnt communicate well. However she's working on that. Would give anything to curl up next to someone just to get a few pets and a scritch or two. Price: A Relationship OBO
So recently I have gone off the deep end. With everything that has happened recently and is still happening can you expect any less. At the moment they have me to doped up to even know which way is up. Lexapro in the morning Xanex XR in the afternoon and a Seraquil before bed. I am going through life like a damn zombie all because of my depression and new tendency to scratch horrible holes into my arms.
I am slowly going through and relfecting on all the things that I have burried so deep that.. I cant help but hate myself when I am doing so. I ignore my problems and move on to work on new projects. Yet.. Im not getting anywhere.. the past is comming to haunt me so I must face it.
I am having to deal with the fact that.. I had an abortion.. yes. I didnt loose the baby.. I had an abortion. A word that is fouler than foul. I hate myself everyday for it. But I have to think that perhaps though it was not thinking with my heart.. that I could not have provided as I would have needed to. Not at this time.. Not at this place. I got Caity because I knew I was going to do it and I wanted something that would still love me. At the time I was goin through life hurting so many and finding superficail love.. (Yes I know thats misspelled.. shut up)
I loan out all my money so I cant provide for my dogs.. and .. well now my car note is overdue and my insurance is going to be cancled in a few days and .. oh.. did I mention that my bank account is over drawn by over 100 dollars? Yea. Stressed? Only extremely.
All I want is someone to love me and help me through all this. Someone who loves me and doesnt say he loves me then goes back to another woman. What kind of life is that. What kind of love is that? I have a hard time even looking at another man and... he goes .. well nevermind. My emmotions are so confused and lost.
So where do I go from here? Where do I turn? Can I set enough goals that I dont have to think anymore? That achieving my goals will help me to deal with the past. Can I deal with the past? Can I stop FUCKING scratching holes in my arm?
Im trying to do all this.. but its so overwhelming. I go to my psyciatrist every two weeks now. It was every week.. sometimes twice a week. I am drugged.. Im working on getting to where I can manage. Yet why does the past still hurt so bad? Will I ever learn to.. accept the past as a fact and learn for the future?
Who knows..
Who could love a manic depressive, anxious, obessive compulsive disordered Kitten?
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[05 Sep 2004|08:36pm] |
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So I have been on medication for .. a while now.. for my depression and anxiety and things had been going alright.
Sure things were kinda rocky.. but Jesus christ!
IF YOU ARE TAKING LEXAPRO.. DO NOT DRINK!!!!!!
I had 4 mikes hard lemonaids and I was drunk as hell. Fun right.. WRONG.. I woke up and I had alittle bit of a headache.. then as the day wore on.. I started feeling bad.. I PUKED SOOO MUCH THAT I WAS PUKING BLOOD BY THE END OF HE NIGHT...
Finally Briana calls my mom and she comes and gets me and saves me.. Because Bri and Brian kept shoving stuff down me to keep me 'hydrated' but all I did was puke it all back up..
Eww
Eww
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Now I hurt everywhere and I have red eyes thanks to busted blood vessels.
Grr
And my dad is in the hosptial again. Yea.. another heart attack.. or almost heart attack.. I dont quite know. Its been a confusing couple of days.. and Im in pain
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I have come to the conclusion that every last man is worthless. Yes and I have evidence to prove this too.
Every relationship (atleast everyone I've been in) You talk to someone get to vaguely know them then you go to bed. From there the man decides is the sex is worth keeping you around longer. If it is the ritual continues to where he 'falls in love' acutally I believe this is just a guys ploy to keep his dick warmer around. He will smooze and work his magic. Which any girl loves to hear. "Oh you are so beautiful.. all those other guys don't deserve you. They didnt know how to treat you right but slowly the true man will show. In the begining its a constant cry for attention and they will do anything to return it. Text Messages, Phone Calls, Cute little Emails. Yet soon the newness wears off. Then you are nothing but a piece of ass that he will ignore until he thinks that is going to loose you. Again its all about loosing you. Occasionally it ends here. The sex is not worth what you are demanding from him. However sometimes it will FOREVER continue in this endless circle.
THERE FOR EVERYMAN IN THE WORLD IS WORTHLESS.. Even those that we love with every last ounce of our heart..
But to a man the heart is nothing other than the source for the blood that will fill his penis.
I need more tequila...
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[31 Jul 2004|09:52am] |
Its my character Kitten with Some other characters.. Kitten is a doberman cat hybrid. Dont ask ;) I like it so :P
Maybe Im starting to be able to draw again.
In other news.. Im through with love! It sucks and bites balls. So Yea! Merry Me!
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[21 Jul 2004|06:33pm] |
Mary... I love you dearly .. but I didnt know my mother did too ;)
Sorry Sara *giggles*
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[14 Jul 2004|10:04pm] |
Caitlyn,
Hey baby! Its just me. I know you can't read, no one could train you that well but I just wanted to let you know that you are the one thing in this life right now that keeps me going. I promise you the world! Soon we'll have our house/apartment. Whatever! But I will get a two bedroom. Just for you! I know you may not be my true child but Caitlyn your all I have and you mean the world to me. I hate having to leave you with grandma so much but Im honestly doing it for the better of both of us. Even if your Daddy doesnt love you like I do. Then again what can I expect I dont even think he loves me like he should. But we cant fault him for that. Whatever happens. No matter what I do or decide it will always be with your best intrests. If for no other reason that to see that adorable look you give me anytime you see me get out of the car or when your laying your head on my leg staring up at me with that 'goodnight momma' look you get. I pray you the best and that even though Im not there to spoil you rotten your enjoying your time as a real dog at Grandma's. I Love You Girl! I would give anything to have you with me right now.
Love,
Momma
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[13 Jul 2004|11:02am] |
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So as the days go on.. It gets closer to the time that I should hear the little pitter patter of little feet.
I am loosing my mind I do not even know what to do anymore. I cant eat, cant sleep, randomly cant breath or anything! What in the hell can I do! I do not know how to go on. I know I will but its driving me crazy I am not suppose to let this get to me. I dont want to let it get to me.. but it is.
Misty keeps telling me just to.. chill out.. That things will be okay.. I want my baby.
*cries*
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[09 Jul 2004|07:52pm] |
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So it has only been forever and a day since I have updated this dang thing. Oh well. I have been alive to say the least. Let me think of the notable points.
My Birthday/Vacation - For the begining of my vacation John Dee Brian Bri and I were at the beach camping. Oh yea.. Did I mention that it was like.. MASSIVE Storming the entire time. Yea.. It was HORRIBLE.. Not fun.. Well I lie.. I was so fucked up the first night.. okay I was so fucked up the entire time that the parts that I do remember were fucking HILLARIOUS! I could go into more details. Like when Dee was asleep in about 4 inches of water from the rain.. and she looks up at Brian and John.. asks if its Raining.. They say Yes.. can you help us hold up the tent? She shakes her head and rolls back over and goes to sleep! LOL
It was a major trip to go camping but it really was alot of fun. I drove stoned for the second time. To say the least its hard as hell to drive all the way from galveston when you can barely feel your feet. Lets see.. Oh!
That Friday I was on vacation I went to see my boyfriend and managed to pinch a nerve in my leg! GO ME! So for a whole week my leg was in UBER Pain.. and for some odd reason its hurting again the past two days. Oh well I got enough vicoden to kill a horse so *shrugs* I just ride out the rough days x.x
Im gonna have to steal Wayne to install the invisable fence at mom's so Caity will quit running amok in the estates. People dont take Kindly to a 70 pound doberman running around the streets LOL Strangly they dont say much when the chihuahua does it.. Who is MUCH more likely to attack LOL Oh well! I have a new SN for those who want to get in contact with me
AIM: SquishysKitten
and a new email addy. So.. yea.. If ya want.. Contact me!
If not.. Eh I'll survive :P
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Purrr today rocked ass! Last night I went over to Bri's and we all chilled. It was pretty cool. We were gunna stay over at John and Dee's but Dee is outta down and didnt like that idea so we went to Bri's. I got WAY fucked up and well yea.. lost my fucking mind watching What Dreams May Come. I dont see how that movie helped Dusty with the death of Stephanie. It just sent me over the deep end. So finally I go to sleep.. and we wake up get completely fucked up again then go to the beach.
My back is burnt to a damn crisp. The rest of me is fine. Well I was also building sand dobermans so my back was about the only thing IN the sun.Oh well! Anyway it rocked ass!
My Birthday is in 11 days!
Happy Birthday to Kitten! hehehe
Happy Kitty
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[03 Jun 2004|08:42pm] |
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Happy Birthday Wayne!
I know you guys never read this anymore but thats okay! Today was awsome! I got just about everything done. Managed to get my fuel pump AND took care of most of my bank shit.
On the plus side Caity and I went to Petsmart for an hour or two. Everyone loves her and she just eats it alll up! She's just the most amazing dog. I got her a stuffed lamb and a squeaky ball! heheh She's staying at the kennel right now but she's got more toys and a bed so :) I dont feel so bad now! Im gunna owe a shit load on my boarding bill! Oh well! I cant get rid of my baby!
Just a little bit longer and she'll get to come home with me!
God life can be so good.
I also cleaned the room almost fucking spotless! Hehehe I have like way to much fucking engery thanks to these new diet pills Im on!
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